ONE LOVE

In the 12^th day of February, I was only 14 I fell in love. Honestly I had no idea what I was getting into.

For young people like me experience was always wonderful and new. I thought my happiness was without end, and I thought we would be together for long. But a sudden break up happens to us.

Maybe it wasn’t love at all. Maybe I was just exaggeratedly hooked by his sweetness.

Weeks of sleepless nights, countless tears, if it wasn’t love, why am I suffering these right now?

Even this days, I still have unsuccessfully convinced my friends that I don’t love him anymore, I can’t help but to glance the preserve memory of times when I’m with him.

I remember how he used to teach me how to dance at our school. I remember that laughter in the school corridors during after practice.

He gave me the greatest happiness as well as the greatest sadness of my young life. I could not sleep, I could not eat, and I could not study. I’d always think of him. I would be watching love story and I would think that maybe this was what was happening to us two.

I kept my heart empty for the longest time so that he could come back and re-enter anytime he wants.

Loving this person made me forget to love myself more. Through it all I loved him very much. I loved him so much but I could not stop his happiness.

If he was happier with someone else, so be it. It doesn’t matter if he didn’t love me in return, loving him is all matters.

I am the one who love him most but I could not have him. Call it stupidity, call it obsession, call it infatuation, love, bitter love, call it whatever you want.

It is not easy to love someone and then rejection follows. But I do not blame him for my illusions.

I may not survive this heartbreak but I still believe the God will send me my angel to love and to cherish forever.